As God teaches me the wonder and amazement of Himself I am in awe of His amazing works. This year I have learn so much regarding God's timing, His plans, His Will and what it means to follow it. But I am still struck by the swiftness that I turn away from all this and attempt to follow my own ways. My sinful, imperfect and disastrous ways.
Or when I forget God. It seems like something that wouldn't happen, I mean I'm always talking to people about how God is doing this ans that and I'm consistently reading my Bible and thinking about God things, how could I forget God? I believe our sinful nature makes to that God can easily be in the back of our minds, even the most respected and prominent theologians have lost sight of God one time or another. But I also believe that when we do forget and realize that we have forgotten we have to then take action and remember. God is constantly speaking to His people in the Bible, telling them to remember, we are such a forgetful and wretched people.
In saying take action, I do mean that we must then, when we forget, turn back to Him and ask for forgiveness. Satan uses one trick that is quite popular in which he tells us that God isn't interested in someone who forgets. "if you haven't prayed in a week, why pray now?" he might say. But I urge you, don't listen to that voice! Listen to God's loving receiving voice of remembrance. He is so joyful when people come back to Him. When I was little my mom used to tell us that every time we ask God to forgive us, he has a party up in heaven for us, along with those who have just asked Jesus to be their Lord and Savior. God celebrates it when we come to Him! So let's remember Him today and celebrate with Him. and When we do forget (because we will) turn away from our rebellion and return to His open Loving arms!
-Ainsley
Come thou fount of every blessing
Tune my heart to sing thy grace
Streams of mercy never ceasing
Call for songs of loudest praise
Teach me some melodious sonnet
Sung by flaming tongues above
I'll praise the mount I'm fixed upon it
Mount of thy redeeming love
Here I raise my Ebenezer
Hither by thy help I come
And I hope by thy good pleasure
Safely to arrive at home
Jesus sought me when a stranger
Wondering from the fold of God
He, to rescue me from danger
Interposed His precious blood
O to grace how great a debtor daily I'm constrained to be!
Let thy goodness like a fetter, bind my wandering heart to thee
Prone to wander Lord I feel it, prone to leave the God I love
Here's my heart, O take and seal it, seal it for thy courts above
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Summer seems to have begun
In five days I leave for Drumheller. I'm going to the Canadian Badlands Performing Arts Summer School...for 3 weeks! I will be able to participate in the Canadian Badlands Passion Play and go to some Rosebud Plays. I'm really excited about this and I can't wait! Trying to get together with friends before I leave is proving more difficult then I thought, with only four days to work with it gets complicated!
After I come back from Acting school I might be leaving for Manitoba to stay with family for a week, without my immediate family! It would be so sweet to be able to do that, it's still tentative but I know it would be just fantastic! After all that Traveling I'm going to be volunteering at my church's day camps and then I'll have two weeks of relaxing, I'm looking forward to it!
Throughout this time I will also be starting to study for next year's Quizzing materiel. Hebrews and 1st and 2nd Peter. I'm beginning on August 1st! I plan to turn off my Facebook account starting September 1st during the week but resuming Facebook during the weekends since most people use Facebook as a means of communicating with me. I find facebook one of the biggest distractions in my academic and studying life, so I'm going to minimalize it as much as possible.
That's the plan, I hope I can stick to it, but it's summer, I'm going to have fun!
-Ainsley
After I come back from Acting school I might be leaving for Manitoba to stay with family for a week, without my immediate family! It would be so sweet to be able to do that, it's still tentative but I know it would be just fantastic! After all that Traveling I'm going to be volunteering at my church's day camps and then I'll have two weeks of relaxing, I'm looking forward to it!
Throughout this time I will also be starting to study for next year's Quizzing materiel. Hebrews and 1st and 2nd Peter. I'm beginning on August 1st! I plan to turn off my Facebook account starting September 1st during the week but resuming Facebook during the weekends since most people use Facebook as a means of communicating with me. I find facebook one of the biggest distractions in my academic and studying life, so I'm going to minimalize it as much as possible.
That's the plan, I hope I can stick to it, but it's summer, I'm going to have fun!
-Ainsley
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Skimpy
Looking through peoples photo albums on Facebook this afternoon because I was bored, I noticed that so many of the photos are of my friends, dressed with low cut shirts, short shorts (and I mean short!) and their make-up done perfectly, usually in the position of leaning down, smiling, and looking in the mirror in their bathroom. "Seriously?" I ask myself. What do you think people are going to say, think and ask after you post these on Facebook?
I read comments like "Sexxyy <3" "Wowza" "smokin hot babe!" With boys thinking about sex about every 14 seconds (ages 14-25) what kind of thoughts do you think are rushing through their heads at that moment?
I even remember seeing a picture of a girl wearing a presentable shirt but her comment underneath was " thought I'd put away my boobies this time!" Now guys posted things like "awe, I miss your boobies!"
What kind of people are these anyway? These are guys who go to my youth group, who come to church, who serve with our Children's ministry!
Our battle for sexual purity does not rest in technical purity. No, We must guard ourselves from all impurity. Girls who dress like they are whores are going to be treated as such. And if your thinking is of the "Even if I'm on a diet it doesn't mean I can't look at the food" type, then wake up! How hard is it to just look at the food and not indulge or even imagine yourself indulging. As girls we should be Encouraging our brothers to stay pure in thought, and for you guys, learn to bounce your eyes. don't let them rest on a tempting object.
I know this can be hard, I still have many, many struggles. But remember that we are not alone in this battle, we have help! God is with us in every situation, including this one!
"No temptation has seized you beyond what you is common to man. And God is fathful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted He will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it."
1st Corinthians 10:13
-Ains
I read comments like "Sexxyy <3" "Wowza" "smokin hot babe!" With boys thinking about sex about every 14 seconds (ages 14-25) what kind of thoughts do you think are rushing through their heads at that moment?
I even remember seeing a picture of a girl wearing a presentable shirt but her comment underneath was " thought I'd put away my boobies this time!" Now guys posted things like "awe, I miss your boobies!"
What kind of people are these anyway? These are guys who go to my youth group, who come to church, who serve with our Children's ministry!
Our battle for sexual purity does not rest in technical purity. No, We must guard ourselves from all impurity. Girls who dress like they are whores are going to be treated as such. And if your thinking is of the "Even if I'm on a diet it doesn't mean I can't look at the food" type, then wake up! How hard is it to just look at the food and not indulge or even imagine yourself indulging. As girls we should be Encouraging our brothers to stay pure in thought, and for you guys, learn to bounce your eyes. don't let them rest on a tempting object.
I know this can be hard, I still have many, many struggles. But remember that we are not alone in this battle, we have help! God is with us in every situation, including this one!
"No temptation has seized you beyond what you is common to man. And God is fathful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted He will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it."
1st Corinthians 10:13
-Ains
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Good to hear your voice
This evening I got to talk to my aunt in St. Agathe in Manitoba for an hour. It was so nice to be able to listen to what is going on in her life lately and let her know what is going on in mine. It's such a great thing, some ones voice I mean. Letters, messages, emails, they're all good, but to hear some ones voice or see their face is something special! It's a buzz feeling, it's like, well, it's hard to explain but I get a tingle in my spine on the back of my neck when I hear the voice of one that I care for. Writing, typing, or even texting is nothing in comparison.
But even more so, is The Voice. Hearing God's promptings must be the most amazing feeling on the earth! I've never actually heard God's voice in a physical form, but I sure as Heaven have heard god speaking into my life, guiding comforting, and leading me. It's mystical, enchanting, and somewhat humbling to know that the God of the universe wants to get to know me, wants the best for me, and knows what I want when not even I know what I want! There's nothing like it!
-Ainsley
But even more so, is The Voice. Hearing God's promptings must be the most amazing feeling on the earth! I've never actually heard God's voice in a physical form, but I sure as Heaven have heard god speaking into my life, guiding comforting, and leading me. It's mystical, enchanting, and somewhat humbling to know that the God of the universe wants to get to know me, wants the best for me, and knows what I want when not even I know what I want! There's nothing like it!
-Ainsley
Sunday, June 19, 2011
Not This Time
casting decisions were made this weekend for the musical "Anne of Green Gables" I had auditioned but I didn't get a part, but you know what? I loved the experience! Never had I ever auditioned for anything in my life, I was so happy that I was able to participate in the form of auditioning.
Most of all though, I'm happy that because I don't have a part, I can do quizzing next year! It was going to be a though year if I were to give up quizzing even if it would have been only for the first half. It would have damaged my chances at Great west and also my chances of really digging into Scripture I think I would be more concentrated in the script. But there are more auditions coming.
"The Lion, The Witch, and The Wardrobe" in September, and "Little Women" Near Christmas time. I'll book for those and hope, once again, to win a part!
Also, I went to a home school grad for Caleb Senneker, a friend of a long time. It was so nice! I had no idea what to expect, but it was so well done and executed wonderfully! I was able to catch up with friends from multiple social groups during the fellowship time, which was great! I'm looking forward to seeing what God has in store for Caleb.
Lastly, I wanted to share a verse that has been on my mind for the longest time. it's Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
-Ainsley
Most of all though, I'm happy that because I don't have a part, I can do quizzing next year! It was going to be a though year if I were to give up quizzing even if it would have been only for the first half. It would have damaged my chances at Great west and also my chances of really digging into Scripture I think I would be more concentrated in the script. But there are more auditions coming.
"The Lion, The Witch, and The Wardrobe" in September, and "Little Women" Near Christmas time. I'll book for those and hope, once again, to win a part!
Also, I went to a home school grad for Caleb Senneker, a friend of a long time. It was so nice! I had no idea what to expect, but it was so well done and executed wonderfully! I was able to catch up with friends from multiple social groups during the fellowship time, which was great! I'm looking forward to seeing what God has in store for Caleb.
Lastly, I wanted to share a verse that has been on my mind for the longest time. it's Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
-Ainsley
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Oh where has my bonnie gone?
Life.
How could something so complicated be so simple? I am pondering this and I felt like blogging about my experience with life.
When I was young learned that life was precious. My grandma dying created this picture in my mind that when people get old they die, it's sad, but everyone goes to heaven so it's ok. I mean, that's what everyone said at the funeral. "mémère is an angel now, looking down on you and watching you." they would say. When we arrived home from the funeral my sisters and I received a long talk about where people really go. how there are only two options. Either they know and love Jesus and go to Heaven or they don't know him and they go to Hell.
From that point on I wanted everyone to know Jesus, I still do, but my motives are different then before. Then I would ask my uncle in front of everyone if he knew Jesus, everyone would laugh and I would be left asking myself why. I would tell them that he needs to know Jesus, or he will go to hell, they laughed more. As one of my "evangelistic approaches" I would ask to pray for the meal at grandmas house and pray for everyone by name who wasn't Christian and ask that they would try to know Jesus soon, my parents gave me another talk about not praying like that after we got home.
Life was a big thing for me, I wanted to enjoy it, sometimes I would sit in the grass in a field during a picnic and stare at the clouds and grass, the mountains and birds, the wind and trees and I would take mental pictures in my mind so that I would be able to appreciate life and it's beauty.
As previously told at this point I still believed that people died when they grew old. But when my family and I ran an orphanage in Africa for seven months that changed my view of this, sometimes overnight we would go from thirty babies under two years old to under twenty babies. While there I had my favorite baby, Madeliene, I was teaching her to talk and walk when, while we were in the capital, she just stopped breathing, I couldn't imagine how such a short life could just die like that. Life doesn't last till all are old. I could go on and on about young people who in an instant are cut short of life. But I know and trust that God had a plan for each of them, His plan is not always ours. It's a hard lesson but it's the truth.
Some people do grow old though, I visit senior homes on a monthly basis now, but used to go every week, (thanks high school) I met a woman who was quite "with it" compared to the rest whose name was Patricia. We talked long about many things from her life to mine, from music to school. I always felt like bringing up faith in the conversations but never ended up doing it. One morning I was reading the newspaper and happened to look in the obituaries, Patricia had died. The paragraph talked about her vibrant love for her Lord however, and I knew that God had her in His arms at that moment. Life goes and comes. God cares for each and every life. he wants all to know His son Jesus Christ, but some don't make it to his arms. I know many who have taken that path also. There are many not so pleasant stories I could tell.
Life goes by fast. You never know when it will end, you could only have a minute left to live or maybe many years, maybe a decade, maybe only a week. Let's live then! Carpe Diem!
-Ainsley
How could something so complicated be so simple? I am pondering this and I felt like blogging about my experience with life.
When I was young learned that life was precious. My grandma dying created this picture in my mind that when people get old they die, it's sad, but everyone goes to heaven so it's ok. I mean, that's what everyone said at the funeral. "mémère is an angel now, looking down on you and watching you." they would say. When we arrived home from the funeral my sisters and I received a long talk about where people really go. how there are only two options. Either they know and love Jesus and go to Heaven or they don't know him and they go to Hell.
From that point on I wanted everyone to know Jesus, I still do, but my motives are different then before. Then I would ask my uncle in front of everyone if he knew Jesus, everyone would laugh and I would be left asking myself why. I would tell them that he needs to know Jesus, or he will go to hell, they laughed more. As one of my "evangelistic approaches" I would ask to pray for the meal at grandmas house and pray for everyone by name who wasn't Christian and ask that they would try to know Jesus soon, my parents gave me another talk about not praying like that after we got home.
Life was a big thing for me, I wanted to enjoy it, sometimes I would sit in the grass in a field during a picnic and stare at the clouds and grass, the mountains and birds, the wind and trees and I would take mental pictures in my mind so that I would be able to appreciate life and it's beauty.
As previously told at this point I still believed that people died when they grew old. But when my family and I ran an orphanage in Africa for seven months that changed my view of this, sometimes overnight we would go from thirty babies under two years old to under twenty babies. While there I had my favorite baby, Madeliene, I was teaching her to talk and walk when, while we were in the capital, she just stopped breathing, I couldn't imagine how such a short life could just die like that. Life doesn't last till all are old. I could go on and on about young people who in an instant are cut short of life. But I know and trust that God had a plan for each of them, His plan is not always ours. It's a hard lesson but it's the truth.
Some people do grow old though, I visit senior homes on a monthly basis now, but used to go every week, (thanks high school) I met a woman who was quite "with it" compared to the rest whose name was Patricia. We talked long about many things from her life to mine, from music to school. I always felt like bringing up faith in the conversations but never ended up doing it. One morning I was reading the newspaper and happened to look in the obituaries, Patricia had died. The paragraph talked about her vibrant love for her Lord however, and I knew that God had her in His arms at that moment. Life goes and comes. God cares for each and every life. he wants all to know His son Jesus Christ, but some don't make it to his arms. I know many who have taken that path also. There are many not so pleasant stories I could tell.
Life goes by fast. You never know when it will end, you could only have a minute left to live or maybe many years, maybe a decade, maybe only a week. Let's live then! Carpe Diem!
-Ainsley
Saturday, June 11, 2011
Thursday, June 9, 2011
The If Only Game
If only... I've been starting a lot of my sentences and thoughts with these words lately. It's not a good show at all. We shouldn't be living for if only s. We should be living with what God has given us, weather good or not good (in our own opinions). My if onlys are right now mostly about Math...the most horrid part of my year thus far. little work during the beginning and middle of the year means work OVERLOAD these last few weeks. In nature I am a lazy procrastinator, If I don't feel like doing something It takes a lot of work to get me to do it. And I have to pay for it in the end.
Tonight I audition for "Anne of Green Gables-The Musical". I'm a little nervous, but I hope to just have fun, get experience and if, by some stroke of luck I get a part that would be out of my mind! If I do get a part though, I would have to work so hard next year, with my first year of high school (including Latin, Logic, Chem, and a whole spanking new math curriculum, this is only the new stuff on top of what I'm already doing this year!) Quizzing (If I want to make it to great west I'm going to have to do text and study consistently and hard.) and Violin (i"m not a beginner anymore says my teacher no more half hour practices) Sometimes I hope I don't get a part for the sole reason being that I don't want to work that hard!
But one condolence is that I have been accepted to an acting school this summer. Three weeks of pure intense acting! Maybe not for you but this is bliss to me!
In theological matters, I have been pondering and researching on the role of woman in God's kingdom. Should females be pastors? Teachers in the church? If any of you have thoughts on this please comment! Next week I am talking about this subject with a friend of mine who is a female pastor, to see what her take on this is. So far I am assuming that a woman in a lead position in a church isn't quite biblical, I mean how can a woman if, say she is married be her husbands humble servant at home, but in church be his superior? Anyhow. I don't have much time to go into a lot of depth at the moment, but you all know how much I love talking about subjects such as this. So Phone, message, email me!
-Ainsley
Tonight I audition for "Anne of Green Gables-The Musical". I'm a little nervous, but I hope to just have fun, get experience and if, by some stroke of luck I get a part that would be out of my mind! If I do get a part though, I would have to work so hard next year, with my first year of high school (including Latin, Logic, Chem, and a whole spanking new math curriculum, this is only the new stuff on top of what I'm already doing this year!) Quizzing (If I want to make it to great west I'm going to have to do text and study consistently and hard.) and Violin (i"m not a beginner anymore says my teacher no more half hour practices) Sometimes I hope I don't get a part for the sole reason being that I don't want to work that hard!
But one condolence is that I have been accepted to an acting school this summer. Three weeks of pure intense acting! Maybe not for you but this is bliss to me!
In theological matters, I have been pondering and researching on the role of woman in God's kingdom. Should females be pastors? Teachers in the church? If any of you have thoughts on this please comment! Next week I am talking about this subject with a friend of mine who is a female pastor, to see what her take on this is. So far I am assuming that a woman in a lead position in a church isn't quite biblical, I mean how can a woman if, say she is married be her husbands humble servant at home, but in church be his superior? Anyhow. I don't have much time to go into a lot of depth at the moment, but you all know how much I love talking about subjects such as this. So Phone, message, email me!
-Ainsley
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