The If Only Game

If only... I've been starting a lot of my sentences and thoughts with these words lately. It's not a good show at all. We shouldn't be living for if only s. We should be living with what God has given us, weather good or not good (in our own opinions). My if onlys are right now mostly about Math...the most horrid part of my year thus far. little work during the beginning and middle of the year means work OVERLOAD these last few weeks. In nature I am a lazy procrastinator, If I don't feel like doing something It takes a lot of work to get me to do it. And I have to pay for it in the end.
Tonight I audition for "Anne of Green Gables-The Musical". I'm a little nervous, but I hope to just have fun, get experience and if, by some stroke of luck I get a part that would be out of my mind! If I do get a part though, I would have to work so hard next year, with my first year of high school (including Latin, Logic, Chem, and a whole spanking new math curriculum, this is only the new stuff on top of what I'm already doing this year!) Quizzing (If I want to make it to great west I'm going to have to do text and study consistently and hard.) and Violin (i"m not a beginner anymore says my teacher no more half hour practices) Sometimes I hope I don't get a part for the sole reason being that I don't want to work that hard!

But one condolence is that I have been accepted to an acting school this summer. Three weeks of pure intense acting! Maybe not for you but this is bliss to me!

In theological matters, I have been pondering and researching on the role of woman in God's kingdom. Should females be pastors? Teachers in the church? If any of you have thoughts on this please comment! Next week I am talking about this subject with a friend of mine who is a female pastor, to see what her take on this is. So far I am assuming that a woman in a lead position in a church isn't quite biblical, I mean how can a woman if, say she is married be her husbands humble servant at home, but in church be his superior? Anyhow. I don't have much time to go into a lot of depth at the moment, but you all know how much I love talking about subjects such as this. So Phone, message, email me!

-Ainsley